yeah..finally chaNGE my plans to starhub. haaa..amen! thank God for gideon in helping me apply the student plans. haa.now i gto incoming call free ALL day n 1000 sms. haa. hope i wun exceed. shldnt be la.

had a date w shuping today after meeting! haa..our vday part 2. its pretty gd to share lives to pple who r close with u and who can spur u on. i thank God for this friendship God gave =)

well..tml no more work le. job ended last fri. got over the loss of $$.. juz that am left w quite a no. of mysteries unsolve. though no pt playing any guessing games, there's just this sense of why aint things being explained properly feeling. haiz.. nvm.

oh.h.sat angela brought weiqiang..the guy who worked w us to service..we were praying very hard that he will convert. was on the stage..praying really hard for him. my heart sank when i didnt see him come down to the front of the stage. shirls gave another 1-2 more mins..but still, he didnt come down or raise his hand. haa..frankly..at the moment felt very .....hmm..sad. nearly teared. then after the svc, went to find gwen (ys) and share w her my saddness. hahah.. and who knows..she felt the same way! we almost teared. hahaha.. (i think i had a drop) hahaa.. anyway..cos we worked w him for a mth, then has being like frens..so really feel for him..cos someone i know. but we aint gonna give up! we celebrating his bdae..hope he is free...but alrd planning to get him a gift. hope he will be touch =) he told angela n rayson that he needs more time to think. but i believe if he decide, he will really go far.


trust in God for a job really really sooooooonnnnn!

went for nee1's cg..wow..think it was very refreshing and encouraging to see the gals brainstorming ideas on how to reach the goal and how we can go abt for this wk's ess. yesh..we r all in this together! even the nee2 going to meet up and discuss abt their plans as well..God is w us! was encourasge by the verse chantel shared.
jos 1:3-7

3 I will give you every place where you set your foot, as I promised Moses. 4 Your territory will extend from the desert to Lebanon, and from the great river, the Euphrates—all the Hittite country—to the Great Sea [a] on the west. 5 No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.
6 "Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. 7 Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go

i like the part whereby God says...no one will be able to stand up against us.amen!!

need to sort out some thoughts w God.... yeah..

suai day... (lousy day)

the day started off ok..then smth happen. i was rather irritated n kinda piss off initially. haa..ruiyong, jiayi, dehui n rayson has the "privilege" to see debbie angry. hahaha..ok. its not smth to be proud off. after ahwhile..i cooled down..questioning myself why do i feel the way i feel, why am i angry... realise i learn abt myself again! (haa..why issit in unpleasant moment i learn abt myself??!!!) ..i realise.......

a) i dun like people to compare me with others.cos most of the time its comparing my weaknesses w people's strength. i

b) i can be quite petty at times..(oh mine~!!! nonononon!!!!!)

then was happily going to deposit my pay...then realise i lost 2 third of my pay! i remembered vividly i put inside my wallet. i fold the cash together. and after then, i didnt touch my wallet again. if i drop it..why didnt i drop the rest of the money but 2 thrid of it. hmmm...it looks quite possible that someone has stole but couldnt be.

i need the money. i wanna go thai camp so much... how?!?! now worse..haiz..i really feel kinda sad... i hope God will make a way. my pay and the trip.

during this period, i realise saving is very impt. esp for raining days. esp when ya parents r not giving u any allowance even u r working part time ..what u earned, u r to survive w it. its really not easy. sometimes i felt abit regretted telling my dad that since i work, i wun get any allowance (that time had a little squabble =p). i struggle...i need to be careful of every cent i spend. but i think its for my gd. but.....hao nan ar.......... i need to pay of hp bills...pay transport fees...pay for meals... ok..it could be a gd time for me to learn being thrifty. haa.a..! =) everything will happen for a reason?

ok..talk abt happier stuff...
then went down to meet jean, huiying n ruiz. haaa..we had an enjoyable time of catching up w one another. cos jean's bdae..so we decided to go out w her! . we went to harry's bar after the meals.. waa..tell u guys..the guiatrist really gd!
he can played the melody and play bass on the same guitar..except for sum smoke smell..afterall it was a worth while try (hhaa..am pretty excited cos 1st time to bar) everytime i pass by esplanade i wun want to go in harry's bar. finally!! today i make it.. hhaa..


"God...pls let miracles happen!! "

gtg...dozing off a few seconds b4 the com!!! haa.

so much more..

lots of thoughts running thru my head. people i care for..my studies,..my grp...people who r far God..

past wks, i learnt abt myself. i learnt that after all...

i can be quite stubborn.
i'm quick to judge. ( though my level of benefit of doubt is above average but sometimes, i do fail.)
i neglected people who needs to be strengthen and cared for.
i can be unforgiving.

sometimes i thought to myself, how can God's forgiveness be so............................argh..i dunno how to describe. i want to know more n experience this love n forgiveness more so tat i can exercise what he did to me and his pple =) oso..am still learning to apply the sermon last wk encouraging others.

haaa...and at times, frankly, i hate making decisions. sometimes, for certain things, i rather people tell me what to do and i follow, rather than i decide on the path. but then again, if that happens...will i rather want to make the decision myself instead? haa...man can be so contradicting.

had a wonderful catch up w my date yesterday! haa..shuping! we had an adventure. walk from one place to another..finally ended up at coffee club! food was nice. but most imptly, the company was great =) we had being frens for like almost 7 yrs? haaa...next time we wanna ask ruth out too.. last time, ruth, shuping and myself r in the same cg in our high school days...we serve God together n did lots of silly but fun things together. no wonder people said, frens form in high school days normally will last. haa..treasured the frenship i share w them and many more people who are dear to me (i didnt mention didnt mean i forget abt u!)
so what if u dun have a bf now? i want the best from God. haa..all i do is to grow in God and wait for his timing. i have a bunch of crazy n fun loving sisters and brothers who will lift me up and spur me on the race. thats all i need for now. haha. cos they r the people i will still keep in touch even if i ever get married.

gwen (from ys) and i even agreed that if we didnt marry..we can buy a unit in a condo...and live together w sisters who r not married. hahahah...can do qt together...eat together...etc..so funny!
okok..i am not trying to promote "dun-get-married" thingy.. juz think its pretty cool. (anyone wants to join?!)
of cos..wun mind getting married la. next time shall share my criterias. haa.a.quite fun.

wanna thank all the people in nee for giving their very best last sat. jiayou for the coming wired!! revgen marching towards 40..here we come!!!!!!

updates of CNY..

yeah..yr 2006's cny was a gd one for me. haa.i felt happy that i used my days one activtity after another. cos normally..last few yrs..i spent my cny days at malaysia for two-three days. so didnt go out for movie, walking ard etc. but this yr i did! haa..

29th
1. morning=took ferry with mum to visit grandma in malaysia. and all my aunts and uncles r there. haa..bulk of my hongbao $$ were contributed by them ;)
then spent the whole afternoon there. didnt do much. played a few rounds of mahjong with my cousin and i won one round. haaa. happy cos i won. no money earned cos we didnt gamble. then watched tv, sleep ..and slack ard. was kinda boring.unlike my cousins n aunties.. thank God i didnt stayed there for like 2more days.otherwise..will be super bored. haa

2. reach hm ard 7 plus, bathe..then prepare to meet ruth n gang to celebrate her bdae. haaa. she was surprise with the cake and gift!
we spent the nite at partyworld.. dewen is so happy that i mistaken his singing as the actual singer's voice when i requested junyao to switch the mode off to the one without the original singer singing along. haa..then we watched fun with dick and jane. (i give it 3 stars)was kinda humorous cos jim carrey acted! haa.. after the show, we stood there for 20 mins to discuss wat to do.a few of us went to mac,sit and talked till...7am..then we headed home. i slept till 3pm in the afternoon.

30th.
after i woke up, i went to bathe and prepare to go out to meet eelee and the rest for movie again. haa..we watched Fearless. not bad. it was a real life story of this wushu guy. lots of fighting scenes..but the story was quite meaniningful. (i give it 3 and a half stars) then we walked to esplandae, sat outside one of the cafe, played card games.
later on.. sum went home to catch the last train. so we talked...sit...and ate supper. then eelee, jessie, dehui went to dewen's house to play mahjong. it was 4 am in the morning. haa.. then we took bus to habourfront to catch mac breakfast (past two days i had being eating mac breakfast)..then eelee n i took nel back to hougang n then bus.. i reached hm at 8.20am.

31st
i called yihui when i reach hm to confirm if we still watching the morning show "i'm not stupid too"..haa..so it was confirmed. ding, peter yihui n me watching. i bathe and then head to ps. (bear in mind tat i didnt get any sleep.) haaa. anyway, we watched the 10.20am show. wow..the show is very gd! haa..speaks of spore student and parents life man.. yihui and i was tearing while watching some of the parts. was touching and funny! haa..u shld catch it! .i think parents shld go watch too. haa. then we ne core team went to peter's hse to bia nian...then we eat discuss and watch tv. while watching..i could ta han..i slept.haa..reached home ard 5 plus? fogrot.

1feb (today)
i actually slept for sooooo longgg. i think cos i really tired myself out. haa..cheonging the two nites w little rest. i woke at at erhmm..ok nvm. haa..i work up with 19 sms to be read and 5 miss call! haa..crazy rite? haa.. yeah..later leading worship for gals cg. being awhile since i led worship in cg. gd to refresh! God pls minister to us! =)

was spending QT juz now. i really kok tao(bow) to God. yup.he is nv too late. he spoke to me 3 areas: faith, humility and forgiveness. its so timely. was talking to eelee while waiting for bus to go hm at hougang(on 31st)..was talking to ruth on the phone juz now..what they shared with me n wat i am experiencing...God showed me thru His words juz now!! its exactly what they shared. as i wrote down on my little journal bk what i learnt in QT..my prayer..i realise..all 3 areas was reflected. initially while i was reading the bible, i thought..haa.."no la God..not this verse...it juz reminds me only..not really FOR ME" ...then after ahwile as i read on..another verse abt humility...then as i read on..another parable abt 4giveness...waa..cant be so qiao ba. then i called and told ruth abt it. haa.

its so ironic rite? i want God to speak and when he did, i try to justify..reason with Him. guess i need time to disgest what he has spoke to me and what is happening in my life.. i need courage to step out of the boat and walk on water. yesh..alot alot..

i need to fight the battle within me.