Entering the World of Tests & Projs!!


wohoo! feel so cooling nw. purposely went to had a shower so that i can feel more fresh and alert to battle w my assignments. arhghh God i need ya wisdom!

seriously, time files like nobody business. just start the semster at that e start of jul, mth of aug and sept will be a time w e lots of tests and assignments deadlines. this semster indeed is not an easy one man. its a time to learn to balance and strive w God! (ok, holy spirit, remind me to do it w u! )

am craving for durians!! ever since the durian season started, i haven eat any durians :(:(:(
nw i wish i have a cup of ice blended coffee from starbucks or coffee beans to perk me up! :/

Anyway, past 2 days had been an emotionally & mentally draining days for me. haha i wonder issit becos its a pms-ing period. whatever the case is, it doesnt matter if its pms-ing or not. Its decision making. every thought, every feeling, every action.

2 cor 10:5
5We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

OK! i shall DECIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ANDDD..

wanna THank God For the fellowing pple: Zhiwei, Jon Tay, Hsiao En, Huiqi, Jon Quek & Yihui, JC NEA core team, and all of u (JC NEA) who work hard for the past mths/wks. Thank You for serving hard. I know some of us hasnt reap the fruits yet, but remember, All of ya labor in the Lord is NOT in vain! the fruit will be ripe someday. Lets not give up cos i believe God has not done w us yet (DEFINITELY!!! w all my heart,serious!)

do take care of yaself while u mug too yea? the weather is quite bad these days and a few of u alrd fall sick. eat more fruits!!! drink more water!! :D

alright shld head back to do my research and start killing my brain cells (which i need to ask God to replenish them NOW!) for the projs that's awaiting for me. thats all folks!

"God, its really hard at times when i see whats happening. help me to learn to love like you do. "

You have the choice.

i'm sending my laptop for "check up". guess can only get it back next wk. the laptop fan is making loud noise..my disk space is low, the com will juz hang & i can only switch off the power to make it work again. MY LAPTOP IS SICK!!! :( ok hope everything will go well after the repair.

yesterday i juz handed my resignation later to the shift leader. felt abit sad that i have to quit the job.. the working environment and the pple at mac call centre are pretty nice and alright. i dun mind working again next time during holis. i have to quit cos projs are pilling up, test will come soon too. i want to do them well. (sch fee is expensive! 1 lect is $100 over :/)

Thank God my parents were understanding abt me quitting work at the moment. . well, i gotta watch how i spend my money then!! ;D

anyway..2nd ess is coming! yupp the whole jc grp gonna fight against all odds!!
JC NEA lets jia you!! more will flood in this wk!! the more things are going against us, the more we gonna wrestle w God in prayer and God's power will show.

was really encouraged when i heard how xingyi expected God to touch the heart of her classmate, Alicia. and during altar call, Xingyi prayed for a word for her fren and indeed, God did! Xingyi spoke in faith to Alicia. Alicia accepted jesus into her life! when Alicia is back to her seats, i saw tearings rolling down her face..later i found out that indeed, God touched her heart ;) such a heart warming scene.

Ny had a new convert too! someone from east brought her. on fri nite, i was telling God that even if somewhere pop out a convert will be gd oso!! haha and God did. ask specifically in prayer. ask anything in prayer! prayer is powerful. of cos, we gotta do our part as we pray too :D

As we labor in hardwork and prayer, Fruits will surely come! If God is for us, no one can be against us!!

OH yes! Go listen to hillsongs new album: This Is Our God. The songs inside are awesome.its really very uplifting and encouraging.

i remember i first heard of one of the song called :desert song ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZE33ejdgWIY) when huiying send me the clip. i was really encouraged by the story of one of the worship leader who sang this song. smth happened before she recorded this song. can check it out. how she still praise God and trust in God despite of her circumstance.

Today i watched another clip of their new song called: Healer (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x4xsWldmqAo&feature=related)
The guy who wrote this song, Mike Guglielmucci. Mike is a youth pastor at Planetshakers Church in Melbourne City. he wrote this song when he knows he had a terminal cancer. . yet, he still believes and trust God for his healing. even till the pt he led this song, he put on a oxygen tube and sang it w all his heart. while watching the clip, i totally went speechless.

he said smth that caught my heart during the interview clip: " we can choose what to be magnify." (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aZ_ny8hMgRY&feature=related)
he chose to magnify God instead of his illness. God is BIGGER than the situation.
he is so filled w hope and continue to battle w the illness. he still move on w his life, not feeling pitiful and all. his life testimony really shows me what it means by trusting in God at ALL times and praising Him for who he is.

Because of his real life, his relationship w God, this song that he wrote is so powerful! as the congregation worship w this song, the faith level and dependancy on God is so strong.

it makes me reflect upon my life.everything i go thru, its not wasted. big or small, all can be use for God's purpose somehow, somewhere.

Sometimes i rant and complain abt the happenings in my life.oh man..compare to people who went thru so much in their life, mine is nth man.yes, like what shirls said, our problems are like peanuts!!

When u choose to look to God, there's hope. not fixing ya eyes on situation but God.

i wanna be such a person that choose to focus on God not on things ard me. cos nth gonna change when i keep dwelling in my circumstances. only when i learn to surrender and magnify God, focus on Him, i can be at rest. When God is in control, thats enough.

will be away for a wk from the world of internet...

A Divine Conversation.

alright! here's wat happened one month ago:

i went to jasmine's hse to slack after my work. so we had lunched together. later part, we were just chatting. so i shared w her during camp, 1 of my objective was to ask God to assure me of his calling for me and to tell me wat issit.

well, during camp, God spoke to me thru the lyrics of this song:
"i was made to love u, i was made to glorify ur name, in every circumstance, to find a, chance to thank u...."

God told me my primary calling is made for him.hmm in my heart i was feeling "duh -_-" , i know God. then i asked God again "can u at least tell me abit..juz a small glimspe of wat is the calling u have for me exactly!!" but nth happened after that.

ok back to the convo..so jasmine and i went on talking...and she pop me this qns "debbie, when is the last time u dream for God?" for the next few seconds...i juz kept quiet and looked at jasmine.she continued saying... sometimes, perhaps i do not have the drive in doing things is because in the first place i do not know whats my dream.

wow that qns & statement really struck me. thats the qns i guess God wants to post to me. i know for sure its not God who do not want tell me wat is he calling for me. but firstly, wat is my dream for him?

Frankly, i am sick and tired of juz doing the mundane things...seriously. not that i do not enjoy doing them BUT i know there shld be more than these. Surely there's things i can do more and need to be done for God. i wanna noe wat issit exactly. but because i dare not dream big, i guess i wasnt ready to know wat exactly God's calling has for me.

so i shared w jasmine my thoughts. then i went on sharing the practical part like what are the giftings i think i can continue to strengthen and i wanan venture more.

few days after, i met shirls. and she shared w me abt whats the difference b/w life calling and life station. At different life station, we may serve God in diff areas or ways but if our life calling in God for e.g is to train leaders, no matter where u go, God will use u at that life station, to do ya life calling. wise words from shepherd!

and i am really assured that as long as i develop myself nw, and exercise my giftings..there sure will be opportunity that God will use me in a greater measure.be in nw in the jc minstry or in the future where God place me ;)

life is too short to live for smth less.

now i learnt to dream big. anyway, dreaming big for God is not paiseh AT ALL!! of cos, backing up w actions, is the most impt thing.

2 dreams:
a) Be a P&W ldr!! (even if its not in the youth, i wanna prepare myself nw ( singer's minstry is a gd training ground!), so that next time, at anytime & anywhere, when there's a need, i am ready!)
b) Gift of Pastoral & Mercy to be expand to the MAXXXXXXXX
(to be sharper and spirit led, effective in my ministry. esp when pple share their probs/issues. )

so frens, b4 u ask God whats his calling for u, why not u ask yaself whats ya dream for him?

trust in God that he will nv forget the dreams u had. one day, it will surely come to pass as we are faithful.

Waiting is preparation. when the time come, we will be ready to go all out. its nv wasted!
Sometimes pple ard us seems to know their calling so sure and early, well i know they are people who are firstly faithful w little, and God slowly add upon and show them more.

God's plan for us is to prosper us, not to harm us. his plan for each individuals are different. Trust him!

haah and something interesting happened on that same wk, saturday. b4 i left hm to go church, so happen that my tv was showing the adiddas new advertisement: Dare to Dream! HAHAH. after i saw it i was like...OHHHH...wowo God u reminding me? tsk tsk..



ohh btw..recently i have been you-tubing quite alot..to listen, watch and learn.
and today i chance upon 1 of brooke fraser. lyrics were very meaningful! Its abt LOVE :D GO listen!! (btw she juz got married recently!! to Scott Ligertwood, 1 of the guitarist from hillsong.)

Love Is Waiting

In the autumn on the ground
Between the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons
While a north wind blows through

I watch as lovers pass me by
Walking stories, whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love
Pondering you

I'll give it time, give it space
And be still for a spell
When it's time to walk that way
We wanna walk it well

[Chorus]
I'll be waitin' for you baby
I'll be holdin' back the darkest night
Love is waitin' 'till we're ready
'Till it's right
Love is waiting

It's my caution not the cold
There's no other hand that I would rather hold
The climate changes
I'm singing for strangers about you

Don't keep time, slow the pace
Honey hold on if you can
The bets are getting surer
Now that you're my man

*Chorus

I could write a million songs about the way you say my name
I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again
And like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start
Neither should I rush my way into your heart

*Chorus

haha well, esp when the peers ard me
either alrd attached or recently attached..
sometimes i wonder when's my turn?! HEHEHE.
plsss..who wun think abt it rite?
i bet u guys did too lor! ;p

Well, i really agree w the lyrics in the song.
esp those parts in green.
To me, this is what love is worth waiting for.
Waiting is preparation. 
because i wanna walk the journey well w my future one.
there's no other hand i would rather hold then his.
haha. sound mushy but its true isnt it?
i will wait...wait for The Best God has placed for me :D
and i know when that day comes..i will be very happy!

alright..thats all folks! working morning shift tml. 8am:/

**JC NEA peeps..go to our unit blog!! i posted smth!:D

Photos Maddness!

yes as i haven been blogging for such a lllllooooooooooongggggggggg timmmmeee...
too many things to be updated. i shall juz post pics to share! all these are photos since june till now! HAHA.






Well, besides camp, 1 of an on going event is...: BIRTHDAY....and MORE birthdays... (yes u cant believe how come so many pple's bdae at one go..1 after another literally..)

**Arghh.. a pity nv take any pic during api's bdae celebration!! :(
nevertheless, the stayover was a gd one. the CG get to noe api more! thanx for sharing w us api!! :D

ok the rest are as follow:








Wanna say a big Thank You to ALL who wished me thru sms, called me (liyi & jalea, i was surprise! oso qian jin and jesline.) my unit, my CGs and my frens. those who spent time w me, worte cards for me..thanx!. how nice issit to spend time w pple u loved and enjoys? ;) my love language is time and words, so i ended up feeling loveddddd ;)

Others bdaes: (see..i told ya...lots of bdaes rite?!)






Random Pics:









(i thought taking visitor pass was kinda interesting, so get huiqi to took a pic w me. jia you SR!! lets be strong and committeed, so that we can build strong and biblical pple in the sch! ;) )

regina rest well yea? no worries, we will go out again w next wk w bishan too! :)

HAHAHA. OMG. its really a post FULLLL of pics rite?!?! ok i took such a long time to do this post. thats the consequence when u hasnt been blogging for so long.
and i've been eating NON STOP!! OMG. Time to lose some weight man.

well b4 i print my notes for tml lec and head to bed....a note for beloved JC NEA!! :D

hey pple!!..one key thing for us is EXPECTATION!! (i mention it during our recent prayermeet) when we expect, actions will show, God will honor. Ask and it will be Given! as we have been labour in prayers these few days, lets continue in this prayerful attitude as work w our might yea?!?! the more situation make things look impossible...the more God's power gonna unleased & make it possible!

1) Clique svc @ 3pm this sat.
2) after svc: BBQ @ Potong Pasir
Lets invite!!!

next entry, i will update abt a recent convo i had w dearest jasmine loh & how God use that to speak to me. stay tune! ;D