i muz conquer the twenty laps again!!!!!

haiz..i wasnt motivated enough to swim 20 laps. only manage to swim 10 :/ i will try again tml!

had a bad morning b4 i went to swim. was late to meet the ajcians even though i cab down. too late. by the time i reached they student alrd inside le. (feel like banging the wall!!)
haa..quite a funny side,saw zhiwei running pass me, but she didnt notice me. was too fast for me to shout for her.

felt kinda like haiz. the fact that i spent my leftovers of my money on cab yet i was late. wasnt able to pass them the stuff. and i failed to meet them up.
i walked till the bustop then walk to yck back to the mrt station and head to tpy to swim.

along the way of walking to mrt station, lots of emotions going thru me. which i really hate it! arhghgh..do u feel this way b4? like why again?!?!?! haiz. the feeling really sucks.

while i was swimming, i sort out my thoughts with God. why i feel this way and that. was much better. and realise how awesome and bless are we as a child of God. when we feel so disappointed with ourselves, God dun feel disappointed in us. in fact, he believes and understands us! thats like.... OMG! haha..and the lyrics of greatest gift came to my mind:

The powerful work is here in me
Breaks the chain of guilt and shame
I go free, I go free

I’ll take them to Your cross and leave them there
Captured by His grace, I’m free at last

thats when i am reminded how awesome is his grace. and how loved i am. in him, i can be set free and i juz need to leave all to him, place them at the cross.
anyway..

later gonna meet the grads gals for cg. we gonna share christ and have dinner together! wow..i am kinda nervous though. God muz give us converts!! haa.

job loabngs any1???!!! need it urgently. the transport fee is killing me. i think estimated, i can spend $70 on transport for two weeks=14 days!! and private uni dun have concession. do u noe with concession, 1 mth is $52!! i two wks can spend $70 solely on transport. *faint*
need to travel to and fro. i really need to manage my money better. arghhh...i think better ask mum to buy some bread. bread and maggie shall be "my frens" for the next few days till sunday. will try to eat at hm from nw onwards.

in the mean time, i shall manage this area better! if not one day i will go madddddddddd.......and behave like a mad cow..aahahahaha

well well well...

well, i juz sent an email to gideon. haa..felt much better after the email. shared and account sum happenings. its always gd to have pple who u can be honest with =)

think tonite i dunno why..i think alot. i become abit melocholy. haaa.. pms? no lei...dun usually have. dunno la. mayb its one thing links to another then it juz affects you?

nvm.

i shall go and take my ai xin peanut soup cooked by mum and sleep. tml needa wake up early :)


well, well, well......

debbie's biggest day.
nv will i forget this very day.

haa..no worries,not that i am getting married or wat.haha! but its smth more excited then getting married i guess!!!

today, 16 july 2006 during shirls's ulm marked the biggest day of my life. my turning point.the start of my adventure with God! a new chapter!!!

this is wat happened. (during shirls ulm @ joo chiat)

it was the time for prophecy after the worship, so
so pple prophecise..blah blah blah
when it looks like its gonna end...
shirls spoke a word!!
(u thought its pretty normal? no!! read on!!)

its not like those
"God wants to speak to a few pple here and encourage them w this verse...."
nor
" i saw a vision....its..........and God wants to tell us....."
nor
"there's someone here in our midst, God wants to speak to u".....etc.
BUT
this smth she said

God wants to speak to particularly DEBBIE!!!!!!
(can u believe it?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
ok..then i was there like..."ermmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm" )
she continued and said that the rest can listen and be encourage by God's word..
so she read the verse God wanna speak to me

ps 144:1 (haa.a.i gonna print out big n paste it in my room!!)
Psalm 144
Of David.
1 Praise be to the LORD my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle

so she said smth like God sees my spirit in serving Him (eg. teachable, love pple ..etc) God will continue to add upon me as i lead. in my ldrship. juz like the verse said, trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle, He will equip me. i need not feel inadequate. and i need to act w dilligence and integrity of heart.

after which, shirls and the rest of the uls prayed for me =)

i am soo sososoosososo overwhelemed by it!!!!!! when shirls started to say the first few lines "this word is particularly for debbie" i was "ermmmmmmmmmm, sound scary.haha" =p

its like...so many pple in ulm, God chose to speak to me! particularly for me!!!!!! arghghhghg!! i felt so so loved by Him!! i mean its as if some big shot wants to talk to u only??!!?!!!
and it comes very timely. cos was asking God to really help me lead in a different way and give me insights!

i know he is with me. i know the decision i made during ignite was rite. i thank God i did not let him pass me by and continue to "run away". thank u God for loving me!!!

btw previosuly i was planning wat areas i need to grow in and learnt. so one of the way to learn is to read up books on those area. so timely that i received two books on sat!! it was my belated bdae gifts! hahahah. singers bought this book--heart of an artist and ruth's brother n sister ask ruth to choose a book for me. and ruth consulted gdieon n the book was abt mentoring. its exactly link to areas i wanna learn. esp ruth's brother n sister,they really have the heart. haa..felt so dote by them even they r not my blood related siblings. they are always concern abt me and helping me along in my studies in one way or another.
singers are so sweet too!!
haa..i read quite slow one...i shall jia you!!

so all in all, i know after i made that decison, God kept his promise. he keep assuring me, guiding me along and showing me his plans for me bit by bit.

you came so real, so personal today.
i will nv forget.
u speak to my heart.
assuring me that you are with me.
you are backing me up!
i need not fear,
i will go in faith.
thanx for loving me =)

Most Heartwarming Video of the Year 2006: The video esp made for debster!

Yesh! it can win the oscar award! or if its screen on theatres,..many pple will watched it! cos its so heartwarming =) you will end up saying : "awwwww...so sweet......." at the end of the video.

yesterday i received a speically made vcd fom nee1 gals. they r so sweet!! they actually acted out my life! things i did n my dreams(wat i wanna do/ see coming to past)!! hehehe..its like a small production. its so well done. am very touched. its the most memorable gift i had received for my bdae this yr.

for NEE1:
hey all nee1 gals, really thank u for that video, card and gifts. though the video is not smth that can be use, however, its smth that really left a deep impression in me and really see the efforts, the heart that u gals put in. i felt really loved. words cant really express this love i felt and my gratitude. but.............. thank u very much!!!!!!!!!!! it means alot to me =)
yesh...lets see nee1 multiplying! jia you!!

funny..i felt moody today. dunno for wat reason. haa.a. pms? hmm..well i dun think so. but dunno la...whatever..haaa.. mayb i am juz plain moody..
shall i sleep now n watch soccer later? mayb i shld .ahaha.. cos its the FINALS!!??! Italy or France?! who will win??

**holy spirit!! help us! Pls empower NEE and NED and the whole NE!!!!

GDBYE GDBYE :/

well, suppose to go to sentosa with ruth,but we woke at 9am realising that its gonna rain,there's dizzling.. so we said, ok we go n sleep till 10am and see how again. but after 10am, it still the same!! :( we even went to the extend to check weather forecast online. it shows that sentosa area is gonna have light rain.

now at 3.27pm, the sky looks ok!! :( we were so looking forward to it. .haiz..ok anyway, gonna swim later..debster shall be healthy! and i gotta move it move it...hee..
fasting from meat n green tea, mum cooked one of my fav. dish for lunch--egg fried w minced pork. how tempting can it be. i tried to eat the egg n take out the minced pork but its very difficult, in the end i gave up. i juz eat rice w vege... hahah..and a donut a bought yesterday from breadtalk. man....i fasting from meat..means i will eat more carbo food!!! ok..its ok, exercise more debbie, exercise more!!!!!!!!!!!

one thing i enjoy most abt swimming is that i can swim and talk to God .......its a very nice feeling!

joining the guys for cg later! wheee....

Well well well........

well well well..many things happen for the past wks...things that make me smile, things that makes me ponder..i realise one thing i have learnt thru out the yrs is to make every circumstances, every situation either gd or not so gd (esp the not so gd ones) an opportunity to understand abt myself. though sum situations may not be as pleasant and i wish "they" dun happenned, however, thru all those, i learn abt myself. most of the time, the ugly side of me. haa..my thoughts, the way i perceive things/pple. the blindspots that i can still "see" it. haaa. k..abit of contradicting since i say "blindspots" ?

well well well...at least i get to understand myself better ya? haa.. i tried to make each of "them" a lesson to learn. believe this is the so-called "hard truths"..its really hard emotionally.hahah. but in any case, i learnt n life still carries on!

haa...was looking at my past personal entries i typed n saved it at my personal folder... my thoughts, my feelings. haa..its really very silly n funny of me when i read thru now..but one thing for sure. God is faithful and he bit by bit pick me up and mould me. xie xie ni God!

haa..had a mini "starbucks w God" today. reflected my life, how i can grow in, plans for others. now that my timetable is quite ok..i want another day w God..solely w God only. mayb i shall practice "solitude w Him" heheeee..

sch started on monday..ok..kinda bored but will continue to have a spirit of learning n really cant sleep late, otherwise, no energy the next morning n cant wake up! really thank God for eevoon, her constant encouragement thru out these few days in sch!! its not too bored w eevoon constants smses.

Things i value in life may not be as impt as wat you may value,
therefore i understand and i learnt.
i stop thinking that things shld be done the way i see fit, the way i want it to be.
The final step i took......



i moved on =)