I just need time.
just one nite i guess...

got my result. gd thing: compare to last sem, i passed 3 out of 4. for both repeated modules (Acc and stats) i make it thru this time round and cleared the new module(mkt) too ;)

But i didnt make it for law :( 7 marks more!!!!?!?!? haiz... though i somehow did prepare myself for the worse, i guess when the reality comes, u just need time to take the truth.

i was settling my thoughts w God during my way home. needed sometime alone. frankly speaking, if the train was empty, wasnt so crowded, i will juz cry. hhaaaa..juz wanna let out my emotions. well i didnt. it will be so embarrasing la!

so on the train, i told God how i feel. i felt disappointed, defeated, sianzzz and sad. all the negative feelings and thoughts juz come. wun elaborate what are they..but i recalled what zhiwei said to me. she reminded me that for the two repeated modules at least i make it thru this time round. i was like.. "ya..thats true" smth that i can give thanks to..at least i cleared 3 modules out of 4.

felt sad too cos the next sem, i will only get to see my frens for one module :(:( regina and bishan, must date me out too k?!! thank God can still get to see u gals for one module.

i just need time to settle my feelings and thoughts. but am better now. will be alright after tonite, (hopefully!! ;p ) told God that after tonite,i will move on. hope i can. no worries, i will be alright.

a song came to my mind.... :

God will make a way, when there seems to be no way
He works in way we cannot see, he will make a way for me
He will be my guide, hold me closely to his side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, he will make a way....

i dun juz wanna know it in my head, i wanna apply it in my heart and action.
God pls help me to help myself.